I am trying to recover from being an emotional abuser. I have read Beverly Engle's book the emotional abusive relationship and she states that all abusers and most victims have been abused in some way as a child. I know this is true for me. Both my parents were alcoholics, my dad died when i was a baby and my mother would go 3 0r 4 months at a time not being sober. I was on my own basically from a very young age. I did my own laundry, fed myself and got myself off to school. I tried to make everything look normal. I kind of shut down emotionally. I too became an alcoholic, but stopped drinking with Alcoholics Anonymous over 14 years ago. I thought I was fixed or all better. I had some anger issues as a kid towards my mother.  Most of my good relationships are about to ruined because of my nasty abusive behavior. Please help me to change myself.