Child Abandonment Confessions

I am working with an NGO and was working with my team in a slum. Suddenly there was a fire in the slum and a small girl of about 4 years was stuck in the fire. Everybody was shouting and screaming but nobody was ready to go in the fire and save the girl. I being a social worker , also did not take any initiative and tried to stay behind the crowd. Finally a group of young slum boys saved the girl but i till date feel ashamed of my attitude that day.

I helped my friend to leave her kid in an orphanage because she is not married, i feel bad.

I am 5 months pregnant . I should be jumping with joy nad waiting every moment to have the baby in my hands, but it is not happening. I feel stressed and I have these weird thoughts of giving up on this pregnany , though this can not be done now as the time is over. I hate to look at myself in the mirror and i hate to think of me with a baby in my lap. I am not good enough to be a mother i know.

November 2009 my 5 year old nephew came with my parents for vacations. We were going back to our hometown for Diwali festivalbut we miss the train and I slapped my nephew because of his naughtiness. Vary next day I promised myself I'll never hit to any kid. This incident still haunt me.